she laughed and danced with the thought of death in her heart

Which is worse? The wolf who cries before eating the lamb or the wolf who does not.

*pasikaso smakrą*
so yeah. some shit went down.
kitais metais varau pas psichiatrę. bet sako, kad psichiatrai gydo piliulėmis. ir jeigu man tokių išrašys? aš nežinau ar esu pasiruošusi jas gerti. narkomanė. gal pasidarys linksma. o gal kaip tik kažkaip sunkiau. juk yra pašalinių efektų, right?.. right? nežinau, ką atneš rytojus. sumazgoju plaukus į kuodą, nueinu gulti, prasivartau, užmiegu tam tarpe, o ryte pirma, dar beveik miegančios mintis: "o ne...", o rytais šalta. šalta dieną. šalta vakarą. šalta naktį. tik lovoj gera. metai artėja į pabaigą. na ką gi. dar vieni prašvaistyti metai, laukiant kažko. galbūt saulės, oro, gėlių, paukščių. sieloje.
ate.

there are no beautiful surfaces without a terrible depth

What if all women were bigger and stronger than you? And thought they were smarter? What if women were the ones who started wars? What if too many of your friends had been raped by women wielding giant dildos and no K-Y Jelly? What if the state trooper who pulled you over on the New Jersey Turnpike was a woman and carried a gun? What if the ability to menstruate was the prerequisite for most high-paying jobs? What if your attractiveness to women depended on the size of your penis? What if every time women saw you they’d hoot and make jerking motions with their hands? What if women were always making jokes about how ugly penises are and how bad sperm tastes? What if you had to explain what’s wrong with your car to big sweaty women with greasy hands who stared at your crotch in a garage where you are surrounded by posters of naked men with hard-ons? What if men’s magazines featured cover photos of 14-year-old boys with socks tucked into the front of their jeans and articles like: “How to tell if your wife is unfaithful” or “What your doctor won’t tell you about your prostate” or “The truth about impotence”? What if the doctor who examined your prostate was a woman and called you “Honey”? What if you had to inhale your boss’ stale cigar breath as she insisted that sleeping with her was part of the job? What if you couldn’t get away because the company dress code required you wear shoes designed to keep you from running? And what if after all that women still wanted you to love them?

dar yra dėl ko kovoti.